Tori

2008…

One of the worst years of my life to date. A part of me left this world and will never come back. Ever since then things began to spiral out of control.

One minute I’m angry & the next I am confused. Emotions everywhere. I literally felt my world starting to crumble.

Months go by and I start to become so overwhelmed. Unable to control everything that is going on around me.

Then one day you come along and show up out of the blue.

Throwing whatever sense of sanity I had left all out of whack—talk about my world spiraling out of control, well you’ve just turned that bitch all the way upside down.

I cried for many days at the thought of you.

Wondering why are you here?

Why now?

Thoughts and emotions pouring out of control.

Although I always knew you would be apart of my life, I just didn’t think it would be so soon.

What do I say? What do I do?

Time goes by and we begin to learn a little more about each other day by day.

Like…

We had one particular person in common that brought us together.

Your favorite meal was the garlic cheese bread with extra marina from Pizza Hutt. That became your go to lunch.

Slow down on them carbs…

We use to stay up all night and we liked to sleep literally all day.

We use to be hungover together—a lot. LMAO, felt like crap but it all felt worth it.

Saltines and ginger ale did the trick though. Back to normal again.

Then…

A couple weeks go by and things get dark.

There came a time when we had to part ways.

Though we had a good run our time together grew shorter and shorter.

Full of emotions and nerves we finally say goodbye.  I’m sorry I didn’t have the strength for us to grow.

It sucks because they say “when we lose people we love, they come back in a different form.

And I truly believed the part of me that I had lost, came back in the form of you.

My dear sweet Tori, I hope some day we will meet again in some way, shape or form.

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10 thoughts on “Tori

  1. The emptiness from a loss never fully goes away. We simply learn to cope and exist without them in the physical. You shared your loss eloquently, carrying Tori in your spirit.

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